How to feel?

The other day I was surfing the web and I came across this website and was looking at what they had and I showed someone an item that was on there and that person said “It’s cool, but you know how I feel about that” and it got me thinking ( I know, I know. Did it hurt? Yes, it did hurt to think LOL). What did I feel at the time and how it made me feel with what was said? Did I feel love, lifetime, or did I feel happiness? Well at that time I felt my heart drop and feel like an complete idiot for thinking that it meant the same thing to that person as it meant to me, it was heart breaking knowing that it didn’t mean anything to that person it was like it was just something that had no meaning, no planning , no anything it was empty. Then it got me thinking more and more about life and how it is supposed to turn out. When you feel like when you’re in a relationship and you think you know that person is the person you are suppose to spend the rest of your life with and go through this thing that people call life with that person no matter how many lemons life throws at the couple your supposed to pick those lemons up and hold on to them for the future and make orange juice out of them and make all the other relationships around you jealous. It’s not meant to be thrown back and say deal with it it’s your own problem figure out your own thing and leave me out of it. A relationship is between two people who love each other unconditionally, not a one-sided love. Now it is everything you have never thought of like “Why even try?” “Why keep the spirit alive inside you when the other person doesn’t want to?” “Why keep trying when the other person wants something that the other person doesn’t?” Someone once told me “Why pay for the cow when you can get the milk for free?” I am now starting to understand what the person was saying. Why want something someone else doesn’t? Why bother with it? It’s like why keep trying when the other person wants to stay frozen in time and the other person wants to grow the relationship and they don’t meet eye to eye? The funny thing is that someone once told me that they couldn’t see the person going any further in a relationship and settling down to a long-term relationship. I am now beginning to see what they meant by that. Now comes the real question? Should I give up and move on or should I hold on to that rope and hope that it don’t break one day? I know things happen for a reason and there is a reason for everything but to keep trying to find that reason behind things and keep stuffing those lemons in my bra hoping that one day I can make that orange juice and have people wonder how it was done, because one day those lemons are going to go bad and start getting soft. A passionate attraction and desire that both should have towards one another is just a mere fatal attraction when it is one-sided. What is done can be undone, what can be, will be and what is done is done. Hope everyone has a wonderful day and always remember UNICORNS ROX!!!!!!!! 

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